You Are Worthy

Before I found out I was autistic I learned really unhealthy thoughts to cope with the world around me. I believed for certain that I was born under an unlucky star. I thought no matter how hard I worked or how dedicated I was I would never really succeed. I believed that I would never...

When Labels Equal Freedom, My Autistic Experience

I have really been reflecting a lot on labels, diagnosis, and self identifying words. When we choose to define ourselves with a word many people see this as a self limiting box. People often say, "don't let labels define you," or as Colin Wright said, "labels only confine. Aspire to be undefinable." Now, here's the...

Autism, Cures, and the Right to Exist

When I first found out I was on the spectrum I was elated. I had finally found the answer to explain why I was different; why I had so much trouble relating to my peers and understanding how I fit amongst them.  I believed for so long that I was stupid, because I take longer...

PTSD: Hold Space. End Victim Shaming

Being a victim is not a bad thing. Getting trapped in victim mindset can be, but until we learn to hold space for the abused, to fully acknowledge what they have been through and let them express their truth in a safe container, the “victim” may not be able to escape the mindset. Without a...

c/PTSD: You Can Heal

Whenever I struggle to fight for myself. I write a letter to myself like I'm not me. I tell myself all the things I long to hear. And it took a long time, but I really believe it now. I'm worth fighting for. We all are. You are so worthy of so much love and...

Autism: New Age Curing Malarky

I'm autistic and I do not want a cure. Nor do I think my energy is "off" or that I have unintegrated shadow work to do. I did a soul retrieval and it helped me heal immensely. In fact it helped me become more wholly aligned with who and how I truly am. It healed...

Autism: Burnout

Autistic Burnout is a real thing. When you have Autism everything is a little more taxing. Our systems are processing information both from the senses, communication, and the body in different ways that can be more taxing than an Allistic person.  I often find that if I don't take frequent breaks when I'm working I...

Autism: When My Mother Died

  When my Mother died it broke my heart in ways that I will never be properly able to explain in words. I came out of my paralyzing grief a different person. Make no mistake, I am still grieving. I will always have this new knowledge of this thing called grief. I do not believe...

Autism: Ear muffs And Grocery Stores

I've started wearing my ear muffs in public. Most people are gracious and curious. It's lovely to be received in this way. At the store yesterday a group of adults laughed at me. I moved out of their way and they looked at me and all laughed as a group. I wish I could say...